October 3, 2019 – The day before this I effectively drew a significant personal issue to a close (details have to be worked through, but I now know the outcome, not at all good, but it is what it is). From this day forward, I will look to the future, not dwelling in the past or what I cannot control.
I am absolutely great in the moment, in a crisis. I am horrendous in anticipation of what might happen. I have dealt with quite a bit of difficulties in my life, all done with a clear head and driven to a damage-control outcome in the moment. I am a ball of anxiety in anticipation of what may occur. Many times I have actually experienced the worst case scenario, but handled it well once I knew what I was dealing with. I can simply deal with the known, the unknown eats me a new one.
I had a meeting this afternoon. Maybe an hour or so, which we’ll get to shortly. I decided to make the most of the day, getting dressed and out the door as early as possible. My goal was to be a confident business woman. I went with this new blazer I recently picked up, adorable with pink, hot pink, yellow and black on a white background. I wanted to go with slacks and was pleased with my look for the day.
I really tried to savor and enjoy the preparation process. Then I finally realized why I do not enjoy it. I cannot see! When doing my makeup, I am all but blind. I do my makeup from muscle memory. I cannot really watch or enjoy the transformation. Name anything that you would enjoy doing (except sleeping) without the ability to see what you were doing. By the way, I looked damn good.
I ran a few errands, dropping some things off at the recycling center and at Goodwill. Then I headed to one of my favorite consignment shops (I have three go-to shops) and made a beeline for the discount rack. I picked out a few items to try on when I heard a loud crash. Someone had driven into the building! It was a young man in his early twenties who was experiencing a grand mal seizure. The two ladies who run the place helped out (one is a former nurse) until the ambulance and police arrived. The driver was taken to the hospital due more to his seizure than the accident. The car probably needed a tow (a BMW) and we all had a bit of a scare.
I just love the ladies there. They treat me so well and I ended up with two new dresses for $8 total, both look great on me. I was trying to explain to the owner the high I get from a dress that fits me well. She commented on my legs and my figure, which I always appreciate, but I do remind people they are not God given, I work my tail off to have these legs and this figure! I said that perfect dress was like crack and she was the best crack dealer in town! We laughed about that but thought we should change the subject with the police still milling about. There is a high to it that I just don’t or can’t get elsewhere in my life.
I then shot across town to another consignment store (where I sell things) and chatted with my runner friend and store owner about my exploits running the Akron marathon. There I negotiated down three dresses well below the discounted price they were selling for and used my accumulated balance from previous sales to pay for them. Five new dresses on the day, all for about $4 a dress!
Finally I scooted downtown for my meeting. I met with three ladies about my getting involved with The United Way. I will be on a steering committee for three affinity groups they are establishing. This opportunity, as I was clear about, is the one I believe will put me in front of the right people to find that much needed part-time job (hopefully as Kandi, two birds, one stone). I am delighted that I was asked to do this and am looking forward in the coming months to contributing. Since each of the ladies there were young enough (maybe except one) to be my daughter, I was completely at ease, in describing myself, telling them how well I will do for them and how people seem to be drawn to me. As I always do, I told them to use me.
An interesting and delightful day. Another action packed day tomorrow!
So yesterday (the day before today), I set up what I am thrilled to say is my best of the best, ten outfits in nine days carrying me through the end of this month. Dresses, jeans, slacks, skirt suits, simply my fashion best on whatever body it is that I have to work with. I will be attending fundraising galas, networking events, speeches, LGBTQ heritage celebrations. Also my attempt at a Halloween outfit (no costumes here, but once you see it, you’ll understand), events including cancer charities, a fashion show and what I am most looking forward to (and the last on this list), working with my friend Amy (okay helping) on the big Crohns and Colitis event. So throughout the month of November, you’ll read all about these events and them we’ll segue into my holiday favorites! Stay tuned to Kandi’s Land as we bear down on 200,000 hits!
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